One way I found to get over my self-hatred was to literally say "I love you" in front of the mirror.
It's cheesy as it sounds, but honestly it really does work. Give it a go for a couple of days, perhaps a week or so, and see how that happens.
It won't happen immediately, CBT (not the... Yknow) takes effort and the pay-out is amazing.
Just like learning to walk.
You got this. Believe in yourself.
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Easier said than done, but try to find small, simple ways you can improve tomorrow compared to who you are today.
I think you should start with being kinder to yourself. Show yourself some grace, dude. You will escape this horrible season of your life eventually.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I hope and pray your 2025 treats you better.