Hey there, it's TheBestBroster here!

I've been wanting to make a news post to follow up on that really sad one I made a couple weeks ago. If any of you saw that I'm sorry, that was a really bitter, kind of mean-spirited way of expressing my feelings.

I'm currently struggling with a lot of mental health issues if you don't know.

First, I want to let you guys know that I am stable enough as I write this.

But yeah, things in general haven't been so great for me. That's why I haven't really drawn much this month. I swear the anxiety and depression are causing a massive art block. I just can't bring myself to do that much with my days anymore...

I've just been living in this limbo state of being too afraid to live and too afraid to die my entire life. I don't know what this is.

I just feel so disconnected from everything and everyone around me.

I'm still trying though.

Still trying to find meaning where I can, still trying to find reasons to go on.

And I do have to give a huge thank you to you people.

You. The Newgrounds community as a whole.

Because you have given to me compassion and understanding during a rather dark period for me. I've met people here who I truly understand. That never happened all throughout school. Only here have I met the people who are right for me.

So, overall, my life has been... not so great. But I have been finding solace in people I've met here, and in little things.

I'm ok. And I'm still trying to make something of my life. No matter the odds. I know damn well I haven't survived 20 painful, awkward years on this Earth for no reason.

I wish you all a good day/night!

Too scared to live, too scared to die.

Here lies my curse.

What the fuck is you people's deal? You people just walk the fuck around not questioning anything. Life is fucking meaningless and none of you people seem to fucking care. Why does nobody understand me? WHY? It isn't fucking fair!!!!! Fuck people.

"Oh, well why does life need a point?" - Because EVERYTHING NEEDS A POINT. Otherwise why do you do it?

All of you motherfuckers are the same. Walking around, just living life. HOW? HOW? HOW?

I don't understand this?

What is soooo fucking good about being alive, huh? Fuck everybody.

Why do people continue to just live when they realize it has no meaning? Doesn't that make you want to kill yourself? How do you keep living when you have no reason to?

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?

Hello, Newgrounds! Just trying to advertise quick that I do indeed do commissions! I can do some quality work for what is in my opinion, a decent price!

Now that I've advertised, what's been goin' on in Broster land?

Well, I'm in the process of getting a job and a driver's license, so that's something! I'm quite anxious about it all, and I don't even know if I'll be able to get around without G.P.S., even in my own town. Yeah, I know that's pathetic or whatever, blablabla shut up, I know. But whatever. It's there. I'll use my resources. I just need to get used to driving as a whole anyways.

Yeah, there's been a lot of anxiety and depression in Broster land! Not the happiest place, But I'll be ok I guess.

I'm working on an animation that should hopefully actually be released. It's a parody of Castlevania: The Adventure, on the Game Boy.

I don't have much else to say other than, you all have a great day!

And if you made it here, thank you for reading!

Tell me how you're doin! Maybe we can have a nice chat!

I do commissions now! I have for a little while now, but I'm still open to doin' em! I'll draw the vast majority of things!

Here are some things I've drawn lately!

I'm also on Bluesky! That cool popular not-"X"! Or Twitter. Fuckin' dumbass name change.

I won't be posting as much stuff aside from art that was a prior commitment. Because I'm going to focus away from art and to just getting my life together first. Just reorganizing my commitments in life. new plan n shit.

I know my last news post was depressing, but I'm wanting to welcome the new year with open arms. I will stick to my resolutions I made.

I can do it.

So Happy New Years!

So, 2024 is ending. And the new year 2025 is upon us. Since this year is ending, I will give a recap of what it was like for me. Tell my own tale in a way.

2024 began on a terrific note. I had just had a wonderful mushroom trip and for a while, I was ok. I was actually ok. I couldn't believe it. But it was true. I thought I died and I came back to life during the trip. For a brief period of time, my depression was straight up gone. It was wonderful. There was no self-doubt. No nothing!

But after a while, things sank back to their depressing old ways.

The rest of the year has been terrible. Aside from some brief good moments. I did ok with growing a following here, but not too well personally.

My mental and physical health have tanked worse than they ever have.

I hate myself. I tell that to myself on a regular basis in fact. I have turned into a pathetic waste of a person. I don't know anything other than my computer and my bed and the kitchen. I hate feeling like a child still.

I made some New Years resolutions, and hopefully I can stick to them this time. I just want my life to be different.

Hey guys, I have commissions open now! Consider helpin' a fellow starving artist out if you've got a few spare bucks!

Credit for creating this commissions sheet goes to: Mnzozo. Thank you so much!

As for other things, I am still my same old self! Just doing my same old crap heheh.

I'm still working on my Zelda 2 parody animation even though it's taking way longer than I thought it would to complete and is turning out to be a pain. Animating am I right?

I am also pretty excited for Christmas as I know I'll be getting a new computer and some new records so that's super cool! This new computer has 16GB of RAM, and 500GB of storage, so both of those stats are double what my current P.C. has! I know damn well that's going to help me immensely with content creation, and just make my quality of life that much better since I spend so much damn time on the computer.

Also New Years is right around the corner! 2025 is here, baby (almost)! I've made some resolutions I'm really going to try to hold myself up to. Because I made some for this year, and I did not follow through at all. So I want to redeem myself with the new year. Let's try and kick some ass this time, huh?!

So, thank you for reading this news post, I wish you happy holidays and a happy new year!

How the fuck do people find the will to live? I hardly (if at all) care about being alive. I'm a fucking pathetic wreck of a human being.

I don't have a job and I doubt I'd be able to hold one for a while, or even be able to perform properly at work anyways.

Fuck people. I can't stand being alive. I just want to talk to somebody. I just want somebody to understand my problems and my suffering. I just want to feel a human touch in my life. I don't know what it feels like.

I fucking hate being autistic in this world. I'm just a terrified mess of a human being. I know how I could fix some of my problems in life, sure, but I don't even care. I'm just too apathetic. Nothing really matters to me that much. I don't care about anything.

I hate being alive. This is a cruel fucking joke.