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TheBestBroster
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Brody Henson @TheBestBroster

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Life Update and Underrated Artist Features

Posted by TheBestBroster - 1 month ago

Hello fellow Newgrounds people! I just feel the need to blow off steam about things and I figure another blog post about the current state of my life should be a good idea.


Life Update:


So, how are things going?


Kinda well! Kinda not so.


I am further along in the process of getting a job via my job coach than I ever have been, and I have a meeting with her on the 19th. I think there, we should be applying to some places.


I am so happy about this. I am getting there. I am really getting there. I am so excited to get some money in my pockets. I wanna buy people things, I wanna buy myself things, I want to have some to save too! I want to buy a new record player, new records, paper for my typewriter, maybe some new video games, new things of all kinds! I can do so much. Many opportunities will open up for me because of this. But there are some things still holding me back.


There was fraud on my bank account, and I don't know what to do about it, so I have resorted to asking my mom what to do for help, but I am afraid that she will call me stupid or something. I know I shouldn't let this make me not ask for help with something that is getting more and more important by the day, but I think it is because I don't feel entirely safe emotionally around her. I just think that I'm going to be ridiculed for having this happen to be and I am afraid that I won't be helped.


And I can't fucking stop smoking weed. I am unbelievably ashamed of myself. I don't want this to hold me back from getting a decent job, but at the same time I apparently am so emotionally dependent on the substance that I can't seem to be able to go a day without it. I think this really is quite a problem. But I'm just not ready to stop using deep-down. I have to mention this to my job coach sooner rather than later. I had some today, but since I have this in writing on my Newgrounds, maybe I can hold myself to not smoking any more until after I get a job. Maybe if you guys know my situation, it would make me feel more motivated to help myself.


I'm not saying I want to quit entirely, no. I do genuinely love what the drug does for me, but I have become dependent on it, and that part sucks. It's not the drug itself; it's the dependency that sucks. I want to quit being dependent on it. I just want to smoke only on weekends to be completely honest. But I don't have the self-discipline to really take action on any of it. To control my impulses. I keep saying it's my last time but it never is.


I just had a conversation though that is motivating me to stop so... who knows. Maybe I'll be ok.


Ugh, I just don't know what to do. I just really hate myself. See? Things are going really good but also really... poorly. They always are for me.


I don't know why this of all things is the life I was granted, but... I suppose the best thing I can do is try to play the best I can with the cards I have in my hands.


I can always try again tomorrow, too. I haven't given up completely. Or have I? I can't tell anymore. I have so many reasons not to, but they are fleeting in my head. I hate this. I don't know how to even begin to explain all of these strange psychological complexes in my head. There are so many.


But whatever though.


At the end of the day, I do in fact have too many reasons to live. I have so many reasons not to kill myself right now. I have you guys, I've got friends (they are online but they still count just as much in my heart as irl friends), I've got a family, I've got art, I've got hopes and dreams, I want to see myself blossom into my best self one day, I want to do so many things.


I literally have too many reasons to live. For better or for worse. So I will live, then, no matter what. No matter how loud and bright the suicidal thoughts get, no matter how much I feel hated, no matter how worthless I feel.


I know thoughts like those are dark illusions intending to keep me away from myself.


But like my last artwork said, I am feeling a little glimmer of hope about my future. And I haven't felt this in such a long time, if ever. So this is turning out to be a really meaningful transition period in life for me.


So, I just want to end this post by listing some people whose existences I am thankful for. You are all direct reasons for me living still.


My sister, bl00dy-seraphim617, mnzozo, Jojo, TikkiToon, TomFulp (for creating Newgrounds and allowing me to have the friends I have today, and this wonderful space to express myself freely).


Underrated Artist Features:


I don't just want to share what's going on in my life, I also want to share some artists that I think deserve some more attention for their good work!


EggKtty - Great original character designs and owner of a distinctive style!


Meezimoo - Loads of variety, both in content and in style! And loads of South Park fanart if you're into that!


Alixey - If you like slickly done furry art and O.C.'s, this artist may be for you!


MuryNG - Ever improving with great fanart!


RoadAbelgeym - Wonderful artwork featuring lots of furry characters (and some humans) in tasteful, suggestive poses!


That's all from TheBestBroster! See you guys later!

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ericoliZZ

didn't know you were a freaking furry !!!! (jk lol)

glad you are on your feet for the first time, I wish the best happy times for you

TheBestBroster

Thank you :) I wish the best for you too!!

Remi-le-Oduen

I hope it will go on even better for you from now on

TheBestBroster

Thank you :)

Czyszy

@Alixey 's art really activates my deep fluffy neurons. :P But I'm wondering why they always attach a hyper detailed text description to their art uploads. Search optimization? It looks kinda awkward/redundant tbh.

TheBestBroster

I think the artist just likes describing the images and the characters in it is all :)

Quarl

There are parts I read here that felt so relative, duality is so real. I smoked almost everyday for 20 years, weed is such a massive impediment for me. On one hand it makes me feel good and on the other is another day wasted staring at a tv or hiding from responsibilities. It's definitely a bad influence on the person closest to me too. I've gone cold turkey this week and my dreams got so coherent... I forgot what dreaming was like. I think it's important to enjoy life and imbibe in the experiences that being alive has to offer from time to time but at a certain point it's escapism. Good on you for identifying that duality and doing something about it. There are worse things to have a dependency over but you're exerting control over a substance and that's commendable. Your my inspiration today.

Was the fraud self induced or a scam? Reddit has financial advice communities that can at the very least suggest effective avenues to help mitigate and resolve issues. Worth researching, sometimes that kind of advice can save you a ton of money and stress.

Suicide is a crazy experience, I lost a mom. Not long after that I lost a cousin. I'm happy you have things keeping you grounded, it's not an easy thing to talk about because people will accuse you of attention seeking and like... yeah. That's the whole point. I wish I noticed the signs in my mom so I could have given her every ounce of attention she deserved. You are not alone, but going out like that leaves a lot of sadness in the lives of others. I'm grateful my mom left me with one last lesson: to not repeat that cycle on anyone else. From my perspective, thank you for being brave and talking about it. People are like plants, without attention and the right nurturing they die on their own.

Thank you for sharing all of that. Hopefully I'll notice you around more and have the time to leave a comment or two. We are all screaming through this life so quickly, such small gestures can hold so much impact. Thank you Broster and good luck! Hope you get a job you like :3

TheBestBroster

Hello! I just want to say first of all: Thank you so much for reading that whole thing and leaving such a thoughtful comment :) I deeply appreciate this.

I totally relate with weed being a massive impediment. I've grown so dependent on it physically and emotionally. It sucks. Like yeah I might get a nice high, but at what cost? I've turned into a lazy asshole I feel like. And again, good god I don't want this to affect my job prospects. I just want to be a part of society, is that really so much to ask? I've given serious thought recently to getting a medical marijuana card if I can't sort myself out personally. At least that way some asshole employer can't just disregard me because I am dependent on a substance.

And yeah my god are there worse things to have a dependency on! I am quite thankful for this, and you pointing that out has reminded me of the fact. But yeah I'm currently very weak on the inside and weed has masqueraded as some superhero that will make me stronger on the inside. But I've realized that all the strength was in me all along. Because I realize that I want to moderate my consumption and take some damn control over my life. So maybe in a way, weed did help me realize that I am stronger than I thought? I don't wanna give the drug too much credit though, haha.

The fraud was just a complete scam. I have no idea where it's coming from or why. I really don't want my money being stolen once I actually would get a job. So seriously thanks for suggesting this I will absolutely share this on reddit and try to get some answers. Since apparently I am too much of a wuss to want to encounter the chance of being mildly disapproved of for a little while by my mother.

Yes it is. Suicide is really insane. I haven't personally lost anybody to suicide, but I've come close to losing my sister to it a couple times. And myself.

And yes you have such a great point there and I agree completely. Like, sometimes people literally need the attention they are seeking! Attention-seeking behavior is sometimes needed for people to survive. Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone in this too. It means a lot to hear all this from someone who is a good bit older than me. I appreciate that you are sharing your knowledge, wisdom, and experiences with me.

Thank you for calling me brave for talking about it too! I don't really feel brave for it, but maybe I am. Maybe I just don't realize what I have inside of myself.

"People are like plants, without attention and the right nurturing they die on their own." This will stick with me. This is incredibly true. I needed to be reminded that it is ok to struggle and that it is ok to ask for help. Thank you.

So, to conclude this, thank you so so much for your thoughtful comment on my post, it means a lot. I hope I see you 'round too, you seem like quite a thoughtful, kind, and relatable person! Good luck to you too. Proud of you for going cold-turkey with weed too! :)) You have a super nice day!! You absolutely made mine with this comment!

VariableGR

Big support for these artists and their creations, I love when the Newgrounds community supports each other, lots of love and support!
It is not easy to quit marijuana, but in terms of abstinence
You can do it!

TheBestBroster

Hey I appreciate the support! And yeah I love supporting other artisis

Alixey

@Czyszy @TheBestBroster I really appreciate the shout out and for including me in your highlights. The very accurate and detailed descriptions are nothing more than the alt text feature found in other socials to make visual content accessible to people with vision disabilities. It's something I care a lot about so I try to be as accurate as possible.

TheBestBroster

You are very welcome :))

And that is very nice of you to do that for people who are vision impaired

bl00dy-seraphim617

i wish you so well :,)

TheBestBroster

Thank you so much :)) Good to hear from you!

TikkiToon

A very damn late response (as always), but i believe in you dude! As long as you got the willpower to keep trying even after failing, that's what matters. I admire the steps you're taking to get the job you want with the resources around you. As always, i'm wishing the best for ya!

I agree with Quarl's plant analogy too. Some plants need some more help and nurturing than others but that's ok. It's all part of being human and learning about things; you make mistakes, you feel stupid, then ask for the help you need. People like us are like flowers that have trouble blooming because we're growing out of the cracks of sidewalks; we just need to be moved to a pot to grow better. (idk where i was going with this lmao, but really a change of environment and a good support system goes a long way)

i wish your mom didn't look down on you though for asking for help, especially for something serious like a bank account fraud. i hope you got that situated. it should be okay to ask stupid questions, because its better than not doing anything at all out of fear of messing up, or doing it wrong because of being too embarrassed to ask. I hope you do have people in your life that can nurture you and not make you feel stupid for asking for help.

good luck on trying to quit weed too, that shit isn't easy. maybe you don't have to quit cold turkey and you can just limit yourself to doing it less, and if there's a whole day you went without giving into it then you can treat yourself to something nice, like a snack. again, i have faith in you!

i do appreciate your existence on this site and how a lot of people can come together to support each other and give each other uplifting comments. I'm grateful for this side of newgrounds and for you for being so open and honest about your healing journey; both the good stuff and the ugly stuff. also thanks for the shout-out too, i really appreciate it. :) good luck with everything man! i'm supporting you all the way.

TheBestBroster

I deeply appreciate your comments. Thank you for believing in me <3

I do think that, regarding my mom, she wouldnt actually make fun of me or anything.. I'm just.. paranoid to be honest. Though I did make a reddit post about it that I have to look at. So its not like I'm doing nothing about the situation myself.

Thanks for being supportive of me moderating/quitting weed too. It means a lot.

Thank you for understanding me :) You are a cool friend.

Galneda

Weed is a depressant and it stunts ambition. In addition, if you're becoming adept at handling higher and higher concentrations of THC, the crash after the high exacerbates all of the negative aspects of your mental health.

I discovered this after achieving sobriety from alcohol, which was also sobriety from weed. Four years of raw-dogging life with nothing but caffeine. Smoked a bowl with my brother who is a wake-and-baker and it was a fun evening, but that crash was a depressing three days of haze.

It's difficult to detect it when you're around it all the time. But I promise it's taking as much as it's giving.

If you focus on your weaknesses all you'll see are problems, but if you focus on your strengths, you'll see nothing but solutions.

Like all addictions, you needn't dry-turkey yourself. Start small as you ween off of it just to see what it's like. If for no other reason than "you've tried it one way, experiment by trying it a different way. One that relies less on intoxicants and consumables."

It might seem like a lot at first, but it's do-able, and worth it for your overall mental health.

TheBestBroster

Thank you for the support. I really appreciate it.

Luckily I have a job coming up in the future here so that is motivating me to not smoke any more

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