Since I've decided to make a serious pact with myself to retain my will to live as of late, I have come upon a bad mood again. But I am remembering this time around that not every day is a good day. Not every week is a good week. It is ok to feel some pain from time to time. It just means you are human.

Feeling insecure and unsure from time to time just means you are human. I'm glad I have my friends and family. I love you guys.

I just need to remember to live by the day. And take the punches as they come. And punch back when needed, of course.

No one person can carry the weight of the world on their shoulders.

I need to calm down, and let go. Deal with things when they come up, instead of waiting and letting things fester in the mind.

My good friend, mnzozo, always says to "go with the flow", and... I've realized that perhaps I should give it a try.

I also have come upon a new philosophy of living that works for me. I do believe at this point that life is rather cruel, and meaningless and bla bla bla, I'm 14 and this is deep. I do firmly believe that life is a special kind of hell in a way. Maybe I'm projecting some, here. But I'll just say that mental illness is a bitch, haha.

But that is why I want to make it a special kind of heaven. For myself and for others.

Overall, I've had a bit of a negative mood swing as of late, but I will survive. I will be ok. I will recover. I will not let this bring me down for far too long and cause me to do nothing but mope.

Writing this down was relieving.

I wish you nothing but peace and good times. Thank you for reading this!

-TheBestBroster