ZenonRetna 2024-12-05 23:46:09

I know how it feels when you don’t feel like you have much reasons to go on. There have been days where I feel like I’d give up. But then I remember that there are people, like fans/friends/family, who care about you no matter what. Just remember those people, and I’m sure you’ll find more reasons to keep living.

AlphaStormMusic 2024-12-05 23:54:06

Dude, I get the struggle. 2024 has been my hardest year, and on more than a few occasions I almost did hurt myself. Life can unfortunately be hard at times, or even feel like it will be forever. But just push forward, as much as you can. Some days will be harder than others, some days you'll just want to lay in bed forever, others you'll be up and doing stuff. But even if you don't care about anything, think about those who do care. There are people who care about you, and there are people who are willing to be someone to talk to, even those you don't know (points to self). If you just want to feel understood, even if you and I don't know each other, I am happy to be the person to understand you.

Life can be cruel, but it always gets better. It will, I promise. If you want someone to talk or vent to, please don't hesitate to reach out! Not even specifically to me, there are plenty of people willing to listen. It just takes one message.

Morpherence 2024-12-06 00:09:32

I have same feeling. I jobless for two years, and i can't be good at social skills and and not good to orientate the environment.

My country get more insane like agressively promoting VK while blocking youtube, discord, steam or maybe worse get blocked on Newgrounds us well.

Every time i see news i get depressed and once my heart hurts.

I would say more negative, but i would get banned on such best site Newgrounds (however i have issue that has toxic positivy)

Kraikein 2024-12-06 00:39:25

Finding a motive in life is... hard to say the least, I understand where you're coming from. There's honestly some days where it just feels easy to roll over and let the world trample you. Finding a job is very difficult, heck I'm trying to find a new better paying job and it's been disheartening. There's times I keep thinking about it all.

I'm not going to act like I haven't thought or even attempted to end it all, there's been times I've been hoping when I die and that death will release me from all the pain I've felt. In reality, that's been caused by my depression and anxiety at my lowest points.

I've been trying to figure out the meaning to life, as I don't have a dreamjob of working in animation or having art/animation be a thing that can fully support myself on it's own. I spend a lot of my time at a job I don't really have passion for and it kills me on the inside thinking about it. I keep wondering if I've been doing something wrong, if I'm a failure with it, and it eats away at your selfworth and sanity.

It took me a bit longer than I'd like to admit that I needed to learn to be able to accept myself and give myself a bit more pause/credit in situation. I know my art is not the best, but I need to keep improving and keep looking because that's what I want to do. I want my work to still be good even if I'm not in the industry, an industry which is very competitive and the job market itself atm across the board is not the best.

I just kind of see things as one day at a time. I keep moving along and trying to find more things in life I enjoy doing and things I love and focus on those.

Building human connections is not easy, now I'm not on the spectrum (at least I'm not actually officially diagnosed), but the way I see it is: humans are very complicated creatures to socialize with and can be difficult to find someone out there because you feel overwhelmed by just how many people are here. It's important to know that you're not alone in this world, there are people who understand the struggles you are going through and have gone through it themselves. Some of them even have a near 100% dead accurate representation of what you're going through now.

I will also say, there's tons of people that do care about you. You may not think they do or feel alone, but thing is people don't always show how they feel all the time. It's very easy to forget that sometimes.

But to sort of wrap everything up: one day at a time is the best way to think about life. Living life one day at a time centers yourself and gives yourself more time because you're not worrying about the future, you're in the here and now. Focus on things that bring you and the people around you joy. There will be struggles, there will be trials and tribulations, there'll be times where life decides to kick you in the crotch. But the important thing is to not let life win or keep you down. Your life doesn't control you, you control your life.

And remember to love not just those you care about, but also your self and recognize you do have value to people and their lives. You got this

Czyszy 2024-12-06 01:25:13

@Morpherence
This is a load of bullshit. >:( The terrible thing is that the Russian government is quite succesful at selling their propaganda to the West, and in consequence, a lot of Ukrainians and Westerners believe the myth that all Russian people support Putin's political party, thus, hate anything that is Russian. Unfairly imo. The main reason so many Russians support Putin is because they don't have any other choice.

Creeperforce24 2024-12-06 02:41:59

Ay man… we all have days like this where we just can’t get up… or even want to. But I want you to look at the side of the screen on your profile… 300 fans, hmm, I wonder why. In those 300 fans, I can guarantee you there’s at least 1 person in there who truly cares about you. I agree with @kraikein, live 1 day at a time, but even I have trouble doing that sometimes, but I’m practicing.

But my philosophy is just keep going, just like Winston Churchill said, “If you’re going through hell, keep going”. Always try and find something new, and always try to improve, weather it be spiritually, physically, artistically, and even socially will help. Things can get really difficult, but all I can say, is keep going, never stop. Everything requires some form of effort, and sadly, that even means happiness at some points, but think of it this way… imagine you do actually learn to socialize with others better, imagine you learn who you can fit in with! But all that comes with effort, all of it comes with practice, and consistency, it’s very hard, it, but I can promise you one thing, it’s far from impossible… Improve, try new things in everything, from food to art to activities, and most importantly, ALWAYS, and I mean ALWAYS hold on, even if there is no edge to grab… there is always a reason to live, sometimes I just get off, and look outside, maybe take a walk… that’s always been a working thing for me at least, family that loves you also always help, friends too. If you can’t get comfort in the people you love, you can always get comfort in those who love you <3

I hope you get better soon, I know you can :D!

Guidodinho 2024-12-06 05:17:12

'How the fuck do people find the will to live?'

From my 32 years of observing the people around me, on this big old lousy wet rock floating through space, we call earth: It most often starts by being (at least a little bit of) a selfish dick.
Now this doesn't mean going around making everyone around you misserable, that's being an asshole, aint nobody likes assholes.

I think this scene from Team America helps put things in perspective, as stupid as it may seem:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2cV_q-mVAAA&pp=ygUjVGVhbSBhbWVyaWNhIGRpY2tzIHB1c3NpZXMgYXNzaG9sZXM%3D

KhaosKitsune617 2024-12-06 06:46:44

remembering that there are people who do understand me, there is still beauty to be found in things like music,art,nice people,knowing that i control life and progressing on.

CIEIRMusic 2024-12-06 06:52:17

Dude I know exactly how you feel. On top of Autism I have Border-Line Personality Disorder. To the ableists and naysayers it basically I'm an Autistic Psychopath that's been through and seen a lot of fucked up shit in my life that even to this day I question the very universe itself on the one unanswered question. "Why?" "Why does this happen to us?" "Why can't things be more simple." etc.

So far all I was able to get anything resembling an answer was based on 50 percent faith and 50 percent personal accountability. Trust that there are certain parts in your life and world that will come to you, but if you truly want something out of life, you gotta work harder, smarter and adapt to any potential screw-ups on the way. Make the best out of a bad situation. Ease the symptoms of your disorder that bother you the most (Anxiety and Depression), be it through medication or whatever treatment you believe in. Other than that, there's really nothing else you can do other than sit back and watch regardless of the outcome.

That said, regarding your specific situation I do wish you well.

SolidSnakeOnAPlane 2024-12-06 07:15:32

I know exactly how you feel! I’m autistic, have no job, no driver’s license, and stupid overprotective parents who don’t take me seriously despite I’m a grown adult and probably way smarter than them and just willing to succeed but can’t because they haven’t taught me a single damn thing about being an adult! I hate seeing younger dumber people succeeding in life when I feel like nearly half my life’s been wasted because of my stupid parents. And even though I love them both and it pains me that I have to talk so negatively about them so much because they won’t let me grow up and won’t take me seriously.

AYJAYKENS 2024-12-06 07:25:45

Well, after my anger and depression from 2020, I discovered FNF (especially the modding aspect), Newgrounds (with new and exciting stuff everyday), as well as the VivziePop and the JackNJellify shows (I look forward to new episodes every month). I also read lots of graphic novels. Entertainment is truly what keeps me happy and alive!

Of course, people on Newgrounds talking about anger and depression is not new. If my advice doesn't apply to you, here are hotlines and warmlines that you can call:
(Hotlines)https://blog.opencounseling.com/hotlines-us/
(Warmlines)https://bsky.app/profile/tillybridges.bsky.social/post/3lac5jrem6i2o
Yeah, thank goodness for people linking these, because every soul matters and I gotta help everyone if I can. Hopefully your life gets better moving forward.

KhaosKitsune617 2024-12-06 07:40:21

i can relate to not feeling like a human due to my autism, and not being able to be an authentic self because my parents see me as a child. please contact a helppline pls pls

DioShiba 2024-12-06 09:46:08

I know I can't green text on here like 4chan but...
>Be me
>Struggle with autism
>Struggle to live trying to achieve my dreams by any means necessary
>Realize that, even at my lowest points I've managed to live long enough to know I have problems and they don't always hinge on my mental illness
>Got around to being sober for 5 years after struggling with booze during college
>Managed to hold onto most jobs for at least a year and a half, hoping I can break a record and keep the one I have now for three.
>Continue to work on animating and making art while having that as a side gig finding the right people.

I'm not saying I'm perfect by any means and its not my intent to make this about myself but if there is a profound sense of wisdom I can offer is that, after all the circumstamces I lived purely out of spite long enough to realize that the only way you can have the will to live is by acknowledging you have to solve your own problems and remind yourself what other people think does not matter.

And I get what other people are saying by not being an asshole but I'm going to offer the opposite advice. Its nice to have empathy, but sometimes you have to be a little selfish, focus on you, and have strong boundaries and I say that knowing that I'm not totally anonymous. Because some people don't give a shit about empathy and kindness as much as they claim to.

And really, just do whatever makes you happy. Art, gaming, music, any recreational activity.

Thetageist 2024-12-06 11:29:25

I’m hoping you did call a help line.

I’ve known you for long enough that I’ve seen you bounce back after every crisis that led you to post something like this in the past. You can keep bouncing back.

Don’t bother trying to find one big important reason to be alive - there is no profound truth like that. Instead, think of all the little reasons to stay alive. All the little things that you enjoy or that you’re proud of doing for others. Humans don’t have a single purpose or value, we can do many different things, and just because you’re not good at one thing doesn’t mean you’re completely worthless. We create our own meanings in life, and there are always going to be multiple.

OVERSCORE 2024-12-06 15:45:15

Autism is one of the hardest ordeals socially… it feels so impossible to connect with ANYONE; and while you understand anyone else, they don’t understand you either. As a result we feel so disconnected, pushed to the outside of every friendship or group we try to form.
I know how it feels.
Please understand, we continue living because there ARE people in this world who truly do love us… maybe not understand, but love. And you may never find the answer you’re looking for… that’s okay. ACCEPTANCE is the best way forward.

And if you can’t find a reason to live within yourself, look around— family, friends, fans… all people who would be devastated at the loss. The guilt you would inflict on them? Unimaginable. Believe me.
Remember them when you’re thinking of giving up on this “cruel f*cking joke” we call life, and I pray that you will see that it’s worth it to press on. I wish you all the best in figuring this all out.

theOve 2024-12-06 16:48:19

you need a friend?

Sevi 2024-12-06 18:07:09

Find a physical activity to do with people, like lifting weights, joining a hema club or a mma gym. You'd be surprised how open and welcoming those circles are. Just go in there and ask people if they can give you some pointers because you're new, and before you know it, your self esteem will be way up, and you'll find the energy to lift yourself from depression.

xeiavica 2024-12-06 18:37:11

I haven't worked in years because I'm too screwed up mentally to work. Once you strive something purely for yourself, for your own interest, you start to find meaning. Like I want to make a positive impact on western animation (Which god knows it needs serious help) and it makes me despite my brutal depression episodes want to fight the reaper every day. I know and understand you've heard this all before, so I'm trying hard to word this the best I can.

DeuceLeGoose 2024-12-08 23:32:25

Hang in there buddy. Things will get better.