So, 2024 is ending. And the new year 2025 is upon us. Since this year is ending, I will give a recap of what it was like for me. Tell my own tale in a way.
2024 began on a terrific note. I had just had a wonderful mushroom trip and for a while, I was ok. I was actually ok. I couldn't believe it. But it was true. I thought I died and I came back to life during the trip. For a brief period of time, my depression was straight up gone. It was wonderful. There was no self-doubt. No nothing!
But after a while, things sank back to their depressing old ways.
The rest of the year has been terrible. Aside from some brief good moments. I did ok with growing a following here, but not too well personally.
My mental and physical health have tanked worse than they ever have.
I hate myself. I tell that to myself on a regular basis in fact. I have turned into a pathetic waste of a person. I don't know anything other than my computer and my bed and the kitchen. I hate feeling like a child still.
I made some New Years resolutions, and hopefully I can stick to them this time. I just want my life to be different.
MasterHand4444
Easier said than done, but try to find small, simple ways you can improve tomorrow compared to who you are today.
I think you should start with being kinder to yourself. Show yourself some grace, dude. You will escape this horrible season of your life eventually.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I hope and pray your 2025 treats you better.