So, 2024 is ending. And the new year 2025 is upon us. Since this year is ending, I will give a recap of what it was like for me. Tell my own tale in a way.

2024 began on a terrific note. I had just had a wonderful mushroom trip and for a while, I was ok. I was actually ok. I couldn't believe it. But it was true. I thought I died and I came back to life during the trip. For a brief period of time, my depression was straight up gone. It was wonderful. There was no self-doubt. No nothing!

But after a while, things sank back to their depressing old ways.

The rest of the year has been terrible. Aside from some brief good moments. I did ok with growing a following here, but not too well personally.

My mental and physical health have tanked worse than they ever have.

I hate myself. I tell that to myself on a regular basis in fact. I have turned into a pathetic waste of a person. I don't know anything other than my computer and my bed and the kitchen. I hate feeling like a child still.

I made some New Years resolutions, and hopefully I can stick to them this time. I just want my life to be different.